With clinching hands of worries, I write these words.
With a heart full of fears, I carve these views.
With a slightly burned soul, I share a bit of this own.
I had been hooked since January, like I was a bait seized in dusk, tangled by the outpourings of trials. They are unexpected, surprising, and mind-boggling frustrations. At times of a wisecracked one, so much so that it is getting devastating, you look as if the battle is ripen into melodramatic. Such that enemies enclose you with an endless attack from one battle to another, surrounded by the difficulties at home, work, finances, relationships, and even to the amount of spiritual dryness.
Impatience is trying to imprison the soul.
No matter how I want things unfold so easily, it is just not happening. Then here comes the waiting – the hardest season of waiting.
In a spur of the moment, in your greatest downfall, there is a sluggish digging of a deepest hole in the heart and most times, a sense of betrayal.
Feeling ignored by God?
Your prayers left unanswered?
Eventually you started asking the exasperating question of ‘why.’
But in one of my darkest moments of questioning ‘why’, I seem to forget who’s who. Blessedly, that ‘why’ turned to be ‘Who.’
You are not alone. Never alone.
Today I’m trying to look back and forward at life a little differently, by all means, all by His grace.
Accept it. You can never win the battle alone. Grounded by all the fights you’ve been fighting, life will always be spirited in duels. Truth is, everyone is expected to go through a difficult stuff.
Everyone will go through fire.
Slow down, close your eyes and let His gentle voice silence your wild thoughts.
God is restoring you. He’s never snubbing you. We face endless difficulties but His grace never fails.
See, you can never outrun problems, hurts and failures. They’re designed to be there and we are intended to meet them. But are we to be controlled by these situations? Of course not!
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.
When God says He will walk with you, He will, ALWAYS. But dredge up that He will not be interested about your comfort but on you to be transformed.
So, the moment you already hit the rock bottom, think through to kneel your weakness on your knees. Focus on the truth above and carry on inheriting the wisdom of who you have become – stronger than ever before.
Keep going around and let God release you of what you will grow into. Because His best promise of you conquering the fire with Him is what kind of sword you will be.