In spur of a moment, I was mightily silenced by a thought to escape these overwhelming struggles and the painful burns of fire. To escape life.
The scorching summer has arrived as quickly as hurried as the thunderstorms drowned the inner peace in me. As the storm left cruelty so does the fiery sun endows blisters, altogether distressing to be fondled by my own skin’s weakness.
In that moment of silence, of nothingness, of numbness and of coldness, I was pleading to have a silent place of peace where only I and God unite. I was of desperate need. I felt dryness and everything in between was I terribly longing for harmony.
Thus, I desired to have a break. Me and my best friend prayed for a secluded place. Do you know one thing about solitude with God? It repairs brokenness.
For three days, I’ve realized that when your social media accounts were shut off before your eyes will actually open your sight. No distraction as you chose to give your entire devotion.
There are, of course, revelations during that retreat which I sincerely wish to share. As most of my friends knew, I’ve been tested and still testing by fire since the beginning of 2017. It was all hard, it still is, but what I am praising Him about is through the bending of my knees is what makes me truly stand on my feet.
Yes, I am pressed sideways by trials and afflictions but I am not crushed, always alone on my laps but never abandoned, and downcast but never destroyed. My current troubles are small and will never last long.
As what Aristotle said, “Patience is bitter but its fruit is sweet”, and I totally agree. I’m still on my waiting season, a season of drought but I am so assured that my Gardener is just around to rain grace and in His perfect time will I blossom in my very own season.
From this deepest rough water, His love is sweeping me over. From this deepest dark pit, I’m bathed in light. As my eyes are fixed on God’s character and not on my present situation, I still find peace in the midst of this darkness.
A letter from the Apostle Peter from 1 Peter 4:12-13
“Do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal that has come on you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.”